Praying the Prayer of Relinquishment

Teresa had a masectomy. Her surgeon and a pathologist completed a biopsy of breast tissue and cervical tissue. They removed several polyps by D and C, which were clear of cancer. However, they found cancer in the breast and removed it along with lymp nodes.
Teresa is in good spirits. She placed herself in God's hands through this whole period of worry and waiting, and she is grateful that the cancer seems to have been contained to just the breast, at least as far as we now know.
Her friend, Cathy, has stayed by her side reading to her, bringing her French fries along with a care bag. I am thankful for Cathy. We are hoping to make arrangements for me to go be with her for the first week after she leaves the hospital.
Her medical bills will be prohibitive for her, considering that she is on disability Social Security as it is. Medicare pays 80 percent, but that leaves 20 percent for her....She was barely getting by before this.
I have to keep putting these worries back into God's hands. He provides the seed for the sower. . . He has seed for my sister.
Today His message for me is "Be still and know that I am God." How wonderfully comforting that is. I meditated on the verse, saying it over and over to myself. Each time a new 'distraction' (worry) popped into my head, I placed that worry into God's hands. It felt so wonderful to feel His presence. Many things are too big for me to handle, but nothing is too big for God.
He taught me a lot today--the day I truly sought His presence: I have to let go--of demanding love and fairness, not just for myself but for those I love, also. I have to cease judging the hearts of others--Everyone else is God's business, not mine. How releasing that is to know that I don't have to play the 'fairness cop' in my family. I am responsible only for my own relationship within the family, not for anyone else's.
As for my sister, she belongs to God. She is God's business. Her cancer is God's business. Her relationships are God's business. It is only my business that I love her. God provides the seed for the sower. He will supply me with everything that I need in order to love her. That is all that I am responsible for. Relinquishment. How freeing that is.
I have to find that Catherine Marshall book, I remember her chapters on the different types of prayer, and the prayer of relinquishment was one. I remember the first time I prayed the prayer of relinquishment. I was in my teens and had applied for a job in Atlanta. But, it was given to someone else. I had wanted it very badly, but I relinquished it to God. The next day the manager called to say the woman told him the seat at her station was too hard, and she quit. She obviously hadn't needed the job. It seemed the whole episode had been orchestrated by God to teach me to 'relinquish' the desires of my heart to Him. Well, it was a first step. There have been many, far more serious things to relinquish to Him over the last thirty years. . . , the lives of my parents, the life of a small baby girl, the births and lives of my children. . . , so many things and now Teresa. I feel peaceful about what the future holds for us, for my family.